Being a wife? Being A mom?

Dah lama banget ya bund ga nulis di sini. Kesibukan di kantor menyebabkan bund nyaris ga punya waktu lagi buat ngeblog. Begitu juga dengan aktivitas di rumah, rasanya waktu bund bersama anak-anak  sungguh sempit. Bermain saja rasanya ga ada puas-puas nya, bagaima mungkin waktu yang berharga itu bund gunakan buat menulis di blog. Bund lagi menikmati masa-masa yang sangat indah bersama mereka. Jikapun di saat week end ada 'me time' saat keduanya bobo, bund lebih memilih membaca ketimbang menulis.

Di postingan ini Bund meng-copy-paste lirik nasyid judulnya Zamiloony, yang bund peroleh di kajian muslimah jumatan di Kantor, yang kebetulan topiknya tentang Bunda Khadijah. At the first time Bund mendengarkan nasyid ini, air mata Bund menetes. Bund tidak bisa menahan keharuan di dada ini.. Subhanallah.. Bund langsung membayangkan begitu banyak hal. Betapa indahnya cinta dan kasih sayang yang terjalin antara Bunda Khadijah dengan Rasulullah SAW. Betapa berartinya bunda Khadijah bagi Rasulullah SAW. Betapa menyejukkannya sosok seorang Bunda Khadijah di mata Rasulullah SAW, sehingga mampu menentramkan kegelisahan beliau ketika menerima wahyu pertama kali. Khadijah menghibur beliau: Jangan begitu, bergembirahlah. Demi Allah, Allah tidak akan merendahkanmu . Demi Allah, sungguh engkau telah menyambung tali persaudaraan, engkau jujur dalam berkata, engkau telah memikul beban orang lain, engkau sering membantu keperluan orang tak punya, menjamu tamu dan selalu membela kebenaran.

Semakin bund mendengarkan kisah beliau, yang diceritakan oleh ustadzah, semakin bund merasa Syahdu. Betapa sholehahnya Bunda Khadijah, sebagai seorang istri (dan pastinya juga sebagai seorang ibu)... Bund langsung malu... Bund langsung mengingat-ingat, sekeras apakah usaha yang telah bund lakukan untuk menjadi istri sholehah? Istri yang menyejukkan hati suami? Istri yang mendamaikan jiwa suaminya? Telaga untuk suami berkaca, bercermin, dan menentramkan hati? Rasanya masih mengecewakan.. Apakah selama ini Bund hanya sekedar teman diskusi, teman curhat, teman berbagi, rekan bisnis.  Tidak lebih...?  Apakah bund juga sudah berusaha sekeras itu? Bagaimana dengan sikap bund kepada anak-anak, jundi-jundi tersayang, tercinta, terkasih.... Apakah bund sudah melakukan kewajiban sebagai bunda dengan baik? Limpahan kasih sayang ini, cinta ini. Adakah kebaikan yang telah bund contohkan kepada mereka?

yaa Rabb, beri kami umur yang panjang, agar kami mampu mendidik anak-anak kami menjadi anak yang sholeh..
yaa Rabb, lembutkan hati kami sebagai suami istri agar hati ini selalu terbuka untuk meneladani keindahan kisah rumah tangga Rasulullah SAW...

Jakarta, 19 April 2010 <<coretan Bund di 6 bulan usianya adik>>

Zamilooni (Nashid)

Nashid : Native Deen

 He stepped inside his home, and he overwhelmed with fear
 An angel came with words from God, things were still unclear
 Saying read - read, but he couldn't read, then amazing words he heard
 A trembling deep inside his heart, confused by what had occurred

 There was only one who could comfort him And help him see the light 
 To ease his fears, to reassure It was khadijah, his wife


  Chorus
  He said Zamilooni, Zamilooni, Dathirooni, Dathirooni, (Envelop me, Embrace me)
  A mighty task has come before me I need you here with me By my side

 She was a woman of nobility, successful in all her trade
 Many wealthy men had asked for her, she had turned them all away
 But when she saw Muhammad, a shining moon, may peace be on his soul 
 He was a light for her , so right for her,  her life will now be whole
 But she had never seen him so distressed, as he was there that day
 She would comfort him, and hold him tight, and chase his doubts away

  Chorus
  We look for stories of love, in places dark and cold
  When we have a guiding light, for the whole world to behold
  But were so selfish in our ways, and to the ones we hold so close
  Our own pleasure and happiness is what we value most
  But she sacrificed all her wealth and everything she had 
  And he honored her, and gave her faith, when the times were bad, when times were bad...

  Now years have passed, times had changed, since khadijah breathed her last.
  Message of the one true God, was spreading far and vast
  But then he came across a necklace, that khajidah once had worn
  His eyes began to swell with tears, his heart again began to mourn
  Cause she was there for him, when times were rough, and his enimies were cruel
  Was the first believer, so keen and eager, to comfort al-Rasool

  Chorus
   Mawlaya salli wa sallim da'iman abada 'Ala habibika khayril khalqi kullihimi
  (O my Leader, send your salutations and blessings forever Upon Your Beloved, the best of the    whole of creation)